Diary Post | I Don’t Know About You, but I’m feelin’ 22!

Dear Reader,

So it begins, I’ve aged another year. When I turned 20, I told myself this would be my decade, and I’d do things for myself. Well, that’s finally happening because I’m moving to Japan! I was torn between Japan, Hong Kong, Taiwan, and South Korea. These are all places I’ve wanted to see, but in the end I went with Japan, due to my educational background (I minored in it during University).

I’m going to study, first I’m going to language school so I can learn Japanese better, and then grad school. I have know idea what I’ll study, or how I’ll fund grad school, but that tomorrow’s problem lol.

I disappeared (again) this summer because I’ve been working two jobs, between 69.5 and 75 hours a week. WHICH IS CRAZY. But because I had a set goal, I’ve managed to pull it off. Though, it’s not exactly how I imagined spending my 21st year of life.

One of the jobs I worked was a random office job I had applied for on a whim. I had beaten 168 other applicants, which seriously blows my mind, but at the same time I was overqualified for the position. I applied for it while I was applying for school, that way I had a backup in case I didn’t get a visa.

It was kind of horrible, not because the work was bad, or because anyone mistreated me, but it made me realize how I don’t want to work in an office before I get out there and actually experienced life. This guy had been working since he was eighteen, and now he’s pushing sixty. Doing the same thing everyday, every summer and winter, in the same office he’s been in for 30+ years. Once he told me his story, it kind of pushed me to have a little crisis, and motivated me to get my visa paperwork in order.

He told me it would be an amazing place to grow, and the pay and benefits were great. Which would be amazing, if I were 28 and ready to settle down. It was honestly what scared me the most. My future flashed before my eyes, and it was really, really boring (no shade to him or anyone else who chooses that path, but it’s not for everyone).

I honestly have found a new respect for people who work in offices and enjoy it. Some people really have a passion for their jobs. Though, I will say, there was a lotttttt of office drama. Like, love triangles, and bitter exes, oh and work rivals. I stayed out of it (for the most part), but let me tell you, I won’t miss the office. Did I lowkey get caught up with someone and have my own office romance? I mean, they sure as hell tried to catch me, but I stayed focus on my goal.

Anyway, back to moving. Like I said, when I turned 20 years old, I wanted to spend my twenties living for myself, and it’s only taken me like 2 years to actually get out of the house and put my first step forward, but, I’m excited for the future. I’m not exactly where I want to be, but I’ve gained experience along the way, and I’m moving in the right direction.

One of my dreams has always been to publish a book, and now my friend and I are working to put together a series of light novels with my words and her art. It’s going really well honestly! It’s a story about new beginnings, and I think you guys will really enjoy it! Maybe we’ll get the first volume out by next spring? I’ll keep you posted!

Anyway, that’s all for life updates! Let’s go 22!

As per usual, I’ll share a song I’ve been really enjoying:

I really want to work towards self acceptence this year, so I thought Face by Woosung would be a good anthem! Thanks for reading my dear, and I’ll catch you on the otherside!

Love,

Rin

Vegas 2018 + I turned 21!

Dear Reader,

Long time no post. I apologize for my absence; first, I was busy with school, and then I was busy helping my parents with their business over the summer. Now, I’m applying for jobs and trying to save money for either a) graduate school, or b) language school. I’m thinking of moving to Japan to take language courses, and then possibly graduate school, but I haven’t really decided yet.

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Anyway, I went to Las Vegas during the middle of September, and I turned 21! I also caught something on the plane, so I was cranky for most of my birthday, but honestly IMG_E3442looking back I feel like I’m typically sick on my birthdays. When I turned 18 I had the flu, and same for 20. Last year I had a nasal infection, so that was great (off topic, sorry xD).

We were in Vegas for a week, and we spent most of it in the residential areas, because we were staying with my mom’s high school friends. Plus, I’m pretty sure this is my 4th or 5th trip, so I’ve seen the strip a lot and I wasn’t feeling the best, so I was happy with a chill visit.

I didn’t get a lot of pictures this time either, I mostly took food pictures. We had a Filipino party, because my mom and her friends are from the same Province in the Philippines, so as per usually they had to mark the occasion with food. I also drank a lot of cheap wine, and had a great time.

On my birthday, September 13th, my parents offered to take me to a bar, but we ended up going to Chowking and eating Halo Halo, because I’m so vanilla and didn’t want to go to a bar. Plus Alaska doesn’t have Chowking, and it’s like my favorite fast food restaurant!

I also shopped a lot. Which (honestly) was the main reason why I went to Vegas, to spend all my money on handbags! LOL

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We eventually made it to Fremont Street

And I actually really had fun, oh! And I was finally old enough to play in the casino. I had fun playing the slots, I didn’t win anything, but it was fun none-the-less!

Anyway, I made it home, slept for two days, and now I’m applying to all the jobs I can. I expected to experience more anxiety now that I’m 21, and not following my intial plan of leaving the states immediately after graduation, but I realized I need money to leave, so I’m going to work to pay off my debts, and then possibly leave next summer or fall~

So, to end, I shall share a song. IU’s 23! 23 is actually 21 (or 22 depending on the month you were born) international age (look up Korean ages if you’re confused lol).

I remember thinking that 21 was so far away when IU released the song, but now I’m here, and I really do relate to her lyrics.

She sings:

I’m twenty three
I’m a riddle (Question)
Try to guess the answer

and

“Cunning twenty three
Still long way to go, girl
If I pretend to be immature
Please be fooled roughly”

and

“I, yes, like now for sure
No, frankly speaking I wanna give up
Oh right I want to be in love
No I rather make money
Try to guess”

Ah, the confusing days of our youth. But, I think, I want to make money 😂

Thanks for reading guys! Be sure to check out my Manga IG @love_rinnn or my personal IG @insta_rinnn ❤ byeeeeee

Love,

Rin

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